It's summertime in the hearts of many

I was reminded today about how summers have always been both good and bad for me, with this one appearing to be no different from the others. As a teacher and a mother of three, I always cherished the summers because we could step back from the hustle and bustle of school, day care, lessons, etc. But yet, I always seemed to have a "to do" list a mile long and always (boy, this sounds familiar!) over planned and was disappointed in myself when I didn't accomplish everything. I don't know how I thought that in the midst of caring for and entertaining three children and taking care of a home and yard I was supposed to find time to clean out every drawer and closet in the house, organize all of my photos and cook a delicious meal every night. Umm...didn't happen.

The last two summers have been different for many reasons. Number one is the fact that all three children are no longer living at home. It is just the two of us now. Another major change has been that I've worked throughout the summer with my new job as a mental health therapist. THAT took some adjusting!
As the school year wound down and semester exams started this year, Steve and I went to visit Rachel in New Hampshire. It was sort of a vacation and it really was restful and full of good times.

But now things have slowed down. I am finishing up some things that have been on my desk for weeks and getting my feet on the ground for work this summer. I find an old familiar feeling coming round. It has finally hit me fully and completely that I am 100% totally exhausted!

With so much work going on and deadlines and expectations, I don't think I realized what it was doing to me. I have spent a lot of time outdoors working in my flower beds the last few days and that gives me such a sense of peace.

There are changes going on in my life, as there are with most people. I just don't handle change very well. We continue to look for the perfect house, knowing that we have work to do on ours before we put it on the market and then I'm trying to get my private practice off the ground...and generally I don't know what I'm doing! Lots of changes. That explains the fatigue for sure....maybe I need to go back out in the morning and water those flowers a bit more.